When life gets you down, when you're feeling fragile, broken, injured, worried or afraid, is when you're not aligned. This is when your energy is fractured...and we all feel it and know it when this happens.
No one should ever tell you that that's just how you are, or that you'll have to go through the muck and mud of your trauma, your worst fears or your greatest failures in order to finally heal.
I spent 30 years in Darkness. The details are unimportant, just suffice it to say it wasn't pretty. In fact, at one point I wondered if my river of tears would ever stop. I wondered how come life was so painful that all I could do was cry. I wondered how I'd ended up so angry that I didn't even recognize my own reflection.
Others would say, "Let it go," and still others would say, "Let it run like water off a duck's back." And I would shake my head..."that's easy for you to say." What was wrong with them, I wondered? Don't they know how hard I've tried to do that? I just didn't get it how that could possibly fix anything.
And then one day...
Perhaps it was because I had arrived at the very bottom of the abyss and there was nowhere else to go but up. And my journey toward the Light continues this day.
I spent a few years taking one subject, one flaw, one thorn-in-my-side at a time. I worked at understanding, processing and laying neutral each and every one of them. I worked so diligently that my spiritual fingers were raw to the bone. I was 'so' determined to find another way to do life, that nothing was going to stand in my way.
I rolled each rock and boulder off the path toward my future until there were only a few insignificant pebbles left here and there. I worked hard to be able to see the path ahead...clearer.
I learned about me: who I really was in the beginning before all the cuts and bruises, before all the trails and tribulations had left their scars. I began to understand who I had become because of outer influences and inner doubts, because of fear and powerlessness, and ultimately because I was so focused on the 'wrong things.'
I started to recognize the real me when I stopped long enough to look: I was truthful, fair to a fault, strong, really smart and very courageous. I started to put more and more rocks in the good bucket...and gradually I could feel that I was getting my balance back. Each new revelation urged me forward, and each message of wisdom received begged me to continue along that path. Each moment with Spirit gave me hope.
I started to put my pieces together...the fractured feeling was waning.
I was becoming aligned. And Spirit would fill me up with Peace, its Purpose, its Gifts
of Wisdom, Light, Faith, Humility and Grace. What is within me, is within you also...it has always been the one and only True Promise...and it belongs to you too.
Spirit: pure, Sacred, Divine Energy within you; likened to a seed that will always burst forth with exactly what is contained within it...given the chance.